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[Mar. 2nd, 2009|11:22 pm] |
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Its been ages since i post..Many things had happen within months.
Anyway,its a new beginning for me now.
i have finally realised how many things i've left out and how i've changed.
I used to feel like a kid,a childish one.
Now,i still cannot deny that i'm not childish but i think like an young adult.
i have my responsibilty and roles.And i am still trying hard to fufill all these.
i need time..i need time.
Oh well,coming back to today.
i had my third driving lesson(: goodness! its scary,driving on the road.
i mean though i have the instructor beside me.i am the one controlling the wheel. hahaha!
And due to my retardness,i got horn by two cars.
and worst still engine went off half way on the road. im so kuku laa.
i better buck up man and do more feet excercise. imagining stepping on the clutch pedal for so long. my feet went numb!
sigh! cant wait for my next lesson on thursday! WooOhoOO!
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[Feb. 21st, 2009|01:52 pm] |
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| | i'll be there-mariah carey | ] |
love is cruel, unexpected, unrequited, bad, misery, lonely now.
there is nothing for me to look forward to now. no anniversary, no christmas, no birthdays, no countdown, no surprises, no.. nothing. everything goes back to square one, like how 1 years back, where was i, what was i doing.
you know i hate this kinda feeling. you knew it more than anyone else.
many things happened, & they happened for a reason. maybe we're really never meant to be. ( bet you like the way you're now, so happy & free ) but but baby, you know even if its all your faults, i would still love you. i had never blame you for a single thing.
i realise something. indulging in many activities do not mean that you're leading a high life, happening, whatever. to me, its more on the people i'm spending with that makes the day happening, lively. nothing is special but spending with the one you love, to be able to share that very special moment with that special someone. even if its a little thing that he did, like ordering your fav drink when dinning. you would appreciate it, you smiled.
with that special someone, you're yourself & he lets you.
and at the last hour would seem to be like split second, they go really fast.
i want to make you smile, or rather how we used to laugh like the past. ( boy, i'm missing you every now & then )
now, do you see how important you're to me, well as always.
a part of me thinks that i'm going crazy.
there's just to much to forget.
i'm trying to. sorry.
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